Listening to ‘Funeral’ by Arcade Fire was one of the first times I realized how influential and awe-inspiring music could be. I understood how much emotion could be stirred with the appropriate melody and lyric, and finally everything clicked. I wasn’t writing to impress people anymore. I attribute my ‘click’ to this record, but it wasn’t the only momentous thing that happened while listening to the album. While listening to ‘Crown of Love’, I wrote my very first Spire. I thought it only appropriate to write my final post with Arcade Fire blazing through my headphones as well.
When I was writing, playing shows and collecting friends to help me, music ingrained itself into my life. It wasn’t just something to do in a friend’s basement anymore. It was a conduit for all wholesome, ignorant, self-serving, loving, introspective, kind or hateful things that you and I harbor everyday. And I clutched it tighter as time wore on. I remember worrying and worrying over whether I would be any good by the time High School ended, because at the same time that I thought highly of my music, I compared it to that of my friends’ and that of my inspirations, understanding full well that I had miles to go in growth. I at some points was even worried that I would end up like one of the many adults I have met that “used to play music. It just got too hard to play and balance life at the same time”. The majority of people that I met gave up or joined stupid jam bands in their 40’s. So when Shay approached me the summer before my Senior year while I was asking myself everyday how I was going to handle writing, playing and practicing music as well as getting into college and eventually going there, I jumped at the opportunity to set goals for myself and approach my situation realistically, the way an adult would. That being said, I’m going to reiterate the list of sub-goals I made for myself one year ago and condense the best and worst parts of my year into one post.
1. Work with Lauren O'Connell, Will Sturgeon, or Jack Conte/Nataly Dawn/Pomplamoose
2. Earn 1000 Subscribers on Youtube
3. Be featured on Youtube
4. Get played on the radio
5. Have a song played on television or through the media in some way.
6. Sell a song I wrote to a major artist
7. Have 1000 downloads of my album, Vessels, on Bandcamp
8. Have 1000 PURCHASES of my album, Vessels, on Bandcamp (way different, trust me)
9. Release a new, 3-song EP with songs no one has heard.
Around February, it became apparent that my attention had shifted away from the ultimate goal, which if you can even remember, was to record with professional bands of some sort. Most of my focus was attributed to my sub-goals, and several other sub-goals were added to the list from things that I wanted to do for years but never got around to. Some of these things didn’t require as much effort as I thought, but several required more. The list is as follows:
10. Form a cohesive and standard group of musicians to help you perform your songs.
11. Create more shows for yourself
12. Emote at shows. Invoke more emotion in yourself and your audience.
13. Create a significant music moniker and stick with it.
14. Show your music to other musicians and be proud of it.
15. Learn how to graciously accept both compliments and criticisms.
Of the new sub-goals, 12,13, and 15 were the most difficult, but I actually completed all of them. I learned how to do #12 when I wrote Color Collector, and I perfected it on accident when performing Reservation Blankets.
Of the original sub-goals, the very first one, which seems to be one of the more difficult, I completed. Will Sturgeon was kind enough to give my music a chance and contributed his excellently varied musical expertise into Reservation Blankets, which has in turn became one of my favorite full songs of the six that I wrote this year because of its ability to emote. I also had the great fortune of being played on not only one radio station, but 4 of them. The University of Dayton, Bradley University, North Central College, and College of DuPage were all kind enough to feature my music this year, ranging from Powerlines to RE: Blood.
I’m halfway towards my seventh goal with 528 downloads from bandcamp, although a number of downloads have come from other sites such as Last.FM or ReverbNation, so I’m estimating around 700 to 800 total downloads of my music have occurred this year, which is only 200 shy from the goal. Perhaps the most exciting almost-achieved-goal is the 9th, which states that I wanted a 3 song EP with entirely new material on it by the end of the year. I don’t have 3 songs to record because I have 6.
When I was writing, playing shows and collecting friends to help me, music ingrained itself into my life. It wasn’t just something to do in a friend’s basement anymore. It was a conduit for all wholesome, ignorant, self-serving, loving, introspective, kind or hateful things that you and I harbor everyday. And I clutched it tighter as time wore on. I remember worrying and worrying over whether I would be any good by the time High School ended, because at the same time that I thought highly of my music, I compared it to that of my friends’ and that of my inspirations, understanding full well that I had miles to go in growth. I at some points was even worried that I would end up like one of the many adults I have met that “used to play music. It just got too hard to play and balance life at the same time”. The majority of people that I met gave up or joined stupid jam bands in their 40’s. So when Shay approached me the summer before my Senior year while I was asking myself everyday how I was going to handle writing, playing and practicing music as well as getting into college and eventually going there, I jumped at the opportunity to set goals for myself and approach my situation realistically, the way an adult would. That being said, I’m going to reiterate the list of sub-goals I made for myself one year ago and condense the best and worst parts of my year into one post.
1. Work with Lauren O'Connell, Will Sturgeon, or Jack Conte/Nataly Dawn/Pomplamoose
2. Earn 1000 Subscribers on Youtube
3. Be featured on Youtube
4. Get played on the radio
5. Have a song played on television or through the media in some way.
6. Sell a song I wrote to a major artist
7. Have 1000 downloads of my album, Vessels, on Bandcamp
8. Have 1000 PURCHASES of my album, Vessels, on Bandcamp (way different, trust me)
9. Release a new, 3-song EP with songs no one has heard.
Around February, it became apparent that my attention had shifted away from the ultimate goal, which if you can even remember, was to record with professional bands of some sort. Most of my focus was attributed to my sub-goals, and several other sub-goals were added to the list from things that I wanted to do for years but never got around to. Some of these things didn’t require as much effort as I thought, but several required more. The list is as follows:
10. Form a cohesive and standard group of musicians to help you perform your songs.
11. Create more shows for yourself
12. Emote at shows. Invoke more emotion in yourself and your audience.
13. Create a significant music moniker and stick with it.
14. Show your music to other musicians and be proud of it.
15. Learn how to graciously accept both compliments and criticisms.
Of the new sub-goals, 12,13, and 15 were the most difficult, but I actually completed all of them. I learned how to do #12 when I wrote Color Collector, and I perfected it on accident when performing Reservation Blankets.
Of the original sub-goals, the very first one, which seems to be one of the more difficult, I completed. Will Sturgeon was kind enough to give my music a chance and contributed his excellently varied musical expertise into Reservation Blankets, which has in turn became one of my favorite full songs of the six that I wrote this year because of its ability to emote. I also had the great fortune of being played on not only one radio station, but 4 of them. The University of Dayton, Bradley University, North Central College, and College of DuPage were all kind enough to feature my music this year, ranging from Powerlines to RE: Blood.
I’m halfway towards my seventh goal with 528 downloads from bandcamp, although a number of downloads have come from other sites such as Last.FM or ReverbNation, so I’m estimating around 700 to 800 total downloads of my music have occurred this year, which is only 200 shy from the goal. Perhaps the most exciting almost-achieved-goal is the 9th, which states that I wanted a 3 song EP with entirely new material on it by the end of the year. I don’t have 3 songs to record because I have 6.
A comment made by an early supporter of SpireSpire named Dave inadvertently helped guide me throughout the year, and it said that the best way to get recognized by other artists was to have a vast breadth of material for them to choose from. So with an average of about 1 song per 2 months, I have a complete 6 songs to record under my new moniker, Sun Brother. They were written in this order: Electric Feather, Divide, Reservation Blankets, Color Collector, RE: Blood, and Bible. Bible is a song that needs only one more verse for completion, but has been in the works for probably 6 months.
All of these accomplishments are relatively tangible, and part of Spire’s original agenda was to succeed quantitatively. Can I check on my Bandcamp site to physically look at the numbers and figure out how many plays and downloads I have? Sure, but these results are only significant because of the qualitative principles that allowed them to happen. For years I struggled with the fact that my music in High School wasn’t taken seriously because it sounded like it was written by a High Schooler, and I expressed that frustration many times this year. I always believe in my words, and they are the most important aspect of my music. I might never have fixed that problem had I not written Divide, though. When writing it, my goal was “to use the music to create the emphasis that the lyrics are attempting to convey; to use the music as a vehicle, not just something to accompany the words.” That concept guided my material for the rest of the year.
All of these accomplishments are relatively tangible, and part of Spire’s original agenda was to succeed quantitatively. Can I check on my Bandcamp site to physically look at the numbers and figure out how many plays and downloads I have? Sure, but these results are only significant because of the qualitative principles that allowed them to happen. For years I struggled with the fact that my music in High School wasn’t taken seriously because it sounded like it was written by a High Schooler, and I expressed that frustration many times this year. I always believe in my words, and they are the most important aspect of my music. I might never have fixed that problem had I not written Divide, though. When writing it, my goal was “to use the music to create the emphasis that the lyrics are attempting to convey; to use the music as a vehicle, not just something to accompany the words.” That concept guided my material for the rest of the year.
So, I spent my year writing really worthwhile material, but of course with each success came a bigger hardship. I was plagued with writer’s block the majority of the time, and grew frustrated often at the rate of success I was having. But, SpireSpire forced me to sit down and try to come up with logistic responses “to combat the ever-growing sense of writer’s block. I decidedly went about my writing process differently. Before when experiencing Writer’s Block, I usually just wait it out, but a sense of urgency existed with SpireSpire ending, so I experimented with the actual process.” That particular method included a combination of techniques I learned from friends Colin Borows and Chris Keckler; writing with the lights off while crouching next to my amp for a few hours.
Sometimes the process wasn’t the only thing that needed a facelift, however. The blockage was so bad at times that I couldn’t write anything at all. No inspiration came and I had nothing to say. So I had to approach it like an equation.
Problem: Writer’s block
Solution: Write as much as you can, and don’t think about it so hard at first. Turn your base ideas and observations into something articulate and clever later. You need fat before you can slim down. Gorge yourself in words, and hone them later.
When the block was done and I finally had some quality tunes again, I still had the problem of distribution and sharing. I usually spent lots of the time promoting it to people who had already heard it before or knew that I was a musician. Water becomes stagnant and tepid when it stands for too long, and so does music if it stays in one place, especially if it’s not in a stimulating environment. One of the weeks when I was feeling particularly under accomplished, I realized that “I am a wimp. I suppose it’s a lot easier for me to aspire to things while sitting in my room rather than actually doing real life scary things.” I learned that if I didn’t start playing shows more frequently and inviting people new to the genre or my music in particular, I would just be the musical equivalent to a bog. In short, if I really wanted new ears, I had to find them and jump out of my comfort zone.
Sometimes the process wasn’t the only thing that needed a facelift, however. The blockage was so bad at times that I couldn’t write anything at all. No inspiration came and I had nothing to say. So I had to approach it like an equation.
Problem: Writer’s block
Solution: Write as much as you can, and don’t think about it so hard at first. Turn your base ideas and observations into something articulate and clever later. You need fat before you can slim down. Gorge yourself in words, and hone them later.
When the block was done and I finally had some quality tunes again, I still had the problem of distribution and sharing. I usually spent lots of the time promoting it to people who had already heard it before or knew that I was a musician. Water becomes stagnant and tepid when it stands for too long, and so does music if it stays in one place, especially if it’s not in a stimulating environment. One of the weeks when I was feeling particularly under accomplished, I realized that “I am a wimp. I suppose it’s a lot easier for me to aspire to things while sitting in my room rather than actually doing real life scary things.” I learned that if I didn’t start playing shows more frequently and inviting people new to the genre or my music in particular, I would just be the musical equivalent to a bog. In short, if I really wanted new ears, I had to find them and jump out of my comfort zone.
So I ended up playing some really incredible shows this year. I played a full set to over 350 people, and I played a longer set to a crowd of 6. I played music at school to crowds over 800 people who barely listened at all and I played remarkable shows to 60 people who listened hard. It no longer mattered where I was or to how many I was playing to as long as someone new heard me. In the very beginning, I addressed the real struggle for my Spire journey, saying, “I can’t help but sweat a little bit over the idea that I’m not in control over the end result. I can only continue practicing and promoting and playing and praying that I will ascend to my dreams and hopefully beyond.” This encapsulates my fight all year. It was my job to get people to listen and play my heart out to them. After all, if I don’t act like my music is worth listening to, why should anyone else?
But to win this fight, I had to better understand the importance of performance. I used to go to shows because they were fun, and I invited people because they would have fun, but there is an entirely different motive behind a performance, as I learned watching Jeff Tweedy of Wilco or Arcade Fire or Bon Iver or S. Carey. I no longer invite you because you’re going to have a good time, even though you will. “I invite you because I want you to know me. I invite you there because we're all on the same team. I want you to be validated in the way you feel about things, because I feel that way too, and so does everyone else in the room. The best way anyone can get to know you or me is to pay attention to music. It will tell you everything you want to know. Musicians analyze the best and worst parts of you and me with it. So pay attention.”
I learned how to believe the paradox of writing as entertainment and writing as art. “My music is wholly personal and obviously belongs to me. It is also utterly and irrevocably yours. I write for myself and I write for you, because none of us are so different that our lives can't relate.” We are not separated by our different outlooks of the world, but united in the fact that we have them at all. And because we are all so inter-related, we naturally aspire to each other’s achievements. Very early on in this project, I was flattered and humbled one week because “I’d wager over 10 people have mentioned to me that, as a result of reading all of the aspirations on here, they themselves have ‘unofficially’ started their own goals to see if they can achieve them through hard work and passion!” To be told that I had any sort of impact on someone was simultaneously validating and mind-boggling. I have felt that way many times about other artists, but never did I dream it would be said about me that I served as an inspiration. This reoccurred throughout the year, leading me to, when preparing for a speech about music that I later posted, glimpse the strand of humanity in music people often miss. I feel as if I’m on the coat tails of countless talented musicians, but at the same time I know of kids who aspire to do what I do, so if we’re all on each other’s tails, it should be inherent to pay attention to one another as I mentioned earlier because really we all want the same things.
But to win this fight, I had to better understand the importance of performance. I used to go to shows because they were fun, and I invited people because they would have fun, but there is an entirely different motive behind a performance, as I learned watching Jeff Tweedy of Wilco or Arcade Fire or Bon Iver or S. Carey. I no longer invite you because you’re going to have a good time, even though you will. “I invite you because I want you to know me. I invite you there because we're all on the same team. I want you to be validated in the way you feel about things, because I feel that way too, and so does everyone else in the room. The best way anyone can get to know you or me is to pay attention to music. It will tell you everything you want to know. Musicians analyze the best and worst parts of you and me with it. So pay attention.”
I learned how to believe the paradox of writing as entertainment and writing as art. “My music is wholly personal and obviously belongs to me. It is also utterly and irrevocably yours. I write for myself and I write for you, because none of us are so different that our lives can't relate.” We are not separated by our different outlooks of the world, but united in the fact that we have them at all. And because we are all so inter-related, we naturally aspire to each other’s achievements. Very early on in this project, I was flattered and humbled one week because “I’d wager over 10 people have mentioned to me that, as a result of reading all of the aspirations on here, they themselves have ‘unofficially’ started their own goals to see if they can achieve them through hard work and passion!” To be told that I had any sort of impact on someone was simultaneously validating and mind-boggling. I have felt that way many times about other artists, but never did I dream it would be said about me that I served as an inspiration. This reoccurred throughout the year, leading me to, when preparing for a speech about music that I later posted, glimpse the strand of humanity in music people often miss. I feel as if I’m on the coat tails of countless talented musicians, but at the same time I know of kids who aspire to do what I do, so if we’re all on each other’s tails, it should be inherent to pay attention to one another as I mentioned earlier because really we all want the same things.
With all of the learning and growing I was doing this year, it wasn’t surprising that by the end of it all I was absolutely jazzed to share my music, and with it my thoughts with everyone else. And, excited about the increased number of shows and people interested in my projects, my momentum skyrocketed. At least until I moved away from the area I had been helping to musically cultivate for years to start all over again somewhere else. And this somewhere else had a seemingly worse music scene than Naperville. This change taught me probably one of the most important lessons of my Spire quest. I needed to learn how to be patient. Feeling aggravated and neglected for the first several weeks here, I was worried somewhere deep down that this whole year was for nothing, and that maybe no one really does care about my music. Such was my thought process until I realized that people were beginning to be interested here as well. I knew then that all I needed was time. People will give you a chance if you give them time, and we have all the time in the world if we learn to let it take its course. It’s much like the concept behind a difficult breakup or death in the family. You can understand all you want that things will get better, but you won’t feel quite right until there has been a sufficient amount of time passed, and you don’t control that.
So now after an entire year you can find me in Peoria, and in some unbelievable time-warp/act of god/destiny’s child, ‘Crown of Love’ by Arcade Fire has started playing again while I finish my last Spire post just as it did for my first. I suppose you can say that I failed my goal with flying colors. I did not record with a professional band, and in fact I didn’t even get close to meeting one. But as it turns out, I didn’t even have to because I knew them the entire time. I saw shows and connected with the bands and the audience; I met musicians and made lifelong friends; I solved problems and grew within my music. And finally, I played for you. I drove to farms, basements and living rooms and we got to know each other, me with my art and you with your attention. I will never forget this year of my life and the people who helped make it so important. If you’re someone who read this all the way through or stuck with me for these 49 weeks (give or take a few), I want you to know that I learned all of these things because of you. If this is what failing feels like, I’m going to try failing more often.
All good things forever and always,
Mark Christian Lyon
All good things forever and always,
Mark Christian Lyon













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